Resolutions?

I don't do the resolution thing, but if I did, these would be the ones for next year:

1. Spend more time with friends who are not friends of my boyfriend, i.e. Irma, Sali and UWC friends. The only people I'm seeing nowadays are friends of ours, and they are wonderful, really, but I miss my own friends.
2. Find a job that allows me to do things that I like, such as dancing, being social, going out. No more 12 hours. That's just insane.
3. Get a drivers' licence. I mean to learn to drive, not to buy one on the market. Irma said she'll return hers once I'll get mine :)
4. Keep my weight steady.
5. Drink less, dance more.
6. Cook more often. This should be solved once I'll have a job that will allow me to get home by dinnertime. Eat less fast/unhealthy food.

Cheers!

A hard decision

You all know how obsessed I can get with a project. I start something and if I feel it is worth it, I bring it through no matter what. UC was a perfect example for how I could get myself overloaded with things to do and things to be responsible for. I'm great at burying myself under work to do. And the issue now is that the work I do takes up all my time. Even at UC I had time to go to the bar and party with the guys and every week I went to town to salsa. So, even with the hard workload - for which there is no one else to blame but me - I enjoyed the time that I could spend with my friends. I wish I had time now to spend with my friends. I was at Kori's (one of my salsa friends) birthday party - she turned 30 last week - and I had to leave early. Besides the argument that I had with Kaszi about leaving or not leaving it was also an internal conflict that I had to resolve. I hated to say that I needed to leave (I hated it even more that Kaszi was completely ununderstanding) but I had to leave because there is no way you can work properly after 5 hours of sleep. And it's easy for someone to say "I'm working too" if that person gets paid no matter how well s/he does during the day but I literally earn 0 Ft if I don't do my job well.

All in all, I want my life back. The people around me are way more important to me than this job. I do enjoy running around in the city all day but I want time to cook dinner once in a while, to dance till late, to study for my exams and to continue taking driving lessons. So, I'll quit. There are many roads to success and I'll just choose another one.

But hey, they were good times... a lot of lovely, insane people... like these:




I think I forgot to say that I had a haircut and I have a fringe :)

Christmas time

It's Christmas again and it's a time of the year I am usually not too fond of. But somehow the fact that I was working this week and that I had hardly any time to prepare for Christmas makes me a bit more relaxed about it.

I'm not too much in a Christmas mood. I'll soon be off to my boyfriend's place and I think the house will already be glowing in Christmas lights. Maybe that will do it. I wonder if he already has a Christmas tree. I think it will be the first Christmas tree ever that I'll decorate with a boyfriend :) Tomorrow I'll celebrate with my mother's family and in two days I'll be with my grandparents and my father's family. I just realized this afternoon that I forgot to buy something for one person, my little brother. I wonder when I'll have time to get something for him... Is anything open on the 25th?

I got creative again and even though I didn't have too much time, I did make a couple of things for some people. For example, for Irma, Kaszi, my aunt and my grandparents. I bought a necklace for my sister but it fit me so well that I decided to keep it :) She'll get another one. For the rest, my mother was very helpful with some presents because she actually bought paintbrushes for herself and a book for Béla bácsi and I'll only have to give her the money it cost.

I hope tomorrow is going to be fine and that we can spare ourselves the usual little fights we have in our family during Christmas... I'm not in a mood for that.

Relationship issues?

A day off

So, I had a day off from work today. What do normal people do when they have a day off? They sleep in, stay in bed till noon, have a long lunch, do something nice, i.e. something nice that they don't have to do but they choose to do. What do I do? I set my alarm clock to 9 a.m., which in a way IS sleeping in because every day I get up at 6.20, but it's not really sleeping in in the traditional sense. I hug my baby for a couple of minutes and then collect enough willpower to get out of bed - the earlier the easier. Or, actually, we could depict the will to get up as a function of time and if it's too early after the alarm, I can't get up, and if it's too late, I fall asleep again, so I have to catch the right moment to have an ideal amount of energy to get out of bed. Shower, brushing my teeth. And then the day really starts.

I have to admit I resent the fact that I'm the one who had to organize the Christmas party for EVIME. It was obvious from the beginning that I couldn't be there because I wasn't going to be in Hungary that day (tomorrow). That's one thing. The other thing is that I'm probably the only one who has working days that last 12 hours. It's not too easy to do shopping for a Christmas party after 8 p.m. when the only thing I can usually do after such a day it to get home and go to bed. The party is tomorrow and last weekend I was in Veszprém, so I had two free days in the past two weeks: last Sunday and today. So, I sacrificed these two days on the altar of community work and did some shopping and made presents. People who know me know that I'm into hand made presents even if I'm not too close to the person getting it, so I got creative again and made some consumable goodies... including bottles of Aranchello. You can find the recipe on the web. I can't say it's not nice to do these kind of things, but I don't appreciate them too much if I have to do them.

I made T-shirts for the Board of last year and I very much hope they will like the design. I wanted to make something personal, so I got pictures of the members of the Board and after a couple of hours of GIMPing, I ended up with this:

I wonder what I forgot... They'll find it out tomorrow.

I'll be off now.

THE update

Hahahaha, so an update? That's going to be quite easy now. I'm working 12 hours per day for a marketing company, which takes up most of my time and I have pretty much no life besides that. I thought I should try it out and it seems that I'm stuck there. Not in a bad sense though. My colleagues are great, it's a group of about 20 people, all of us between the age of 21 and 27. The job is challenging and exciting, not at all a normal office job. In fact, it has hardly anything to do with an office and I don't have to use a computer at all. I talk and negotiate with people. If I feel like making fun of them, I can do that too. There are weeks when it's going very well and although last week this wasn't the case, I'll get my act together for next week. There are quite a couple of reasons why it should be going well. First of all, because our pay is completely dependent on how well we do. There's no minimum and no maximum. Then, because I need to be promoted to be a "leader". That's a very important step to be able to start building a team for later. (I'm not going to explain how the company works for now, but prospects are good that you can achieve something big here.) I like the kind of thinking that the company's policies are based on. For examply, there's no seniority, which means that if I'm better than people who have been here for months now, I can achieve my goal earlier. And my goal? Let's keep it a secret for now. It's written in my notebook. The most important thing is that I see a big opportunity in what we are doing.

Apart from work, I'm still going to Veszprém every month for a weekend. This month it was this weekend. I am pleasantly surprised by the lecturers and I have to say they know what they talk about. The exam period is going to start soon and now I'll be an average Hungarian university student, meaning that I won't have a proper Christmas because in Hungary the exam period starts mid-December and ends mid-February. I have 8 exams/papers to prepare for while I'm working my ass off. It's going to be interesting. Especially for economic law and macroeconomics. Well, I guess the fact that I managed to survive 6 exam periods till now should mean that this one is not going to kill me either.

Love? My guy is still in the picture :) Initially he hated my job and complained a lot and I'm not sure whether he likes it more now but he started to be more supportive. I think he realized that I take it seriously now and he also likes the idea that I can build a career from this. There was a day when I almost quit the job and I talked to my trainer about it. When I called Kaszi, he was almost outraged that I was even thinking about that and he said something that I just can't forget. He said that if they (2 people in the company) could do it (be assistant managers) within a year, I could do it within half a year. Regardless the fact that I don't think I can do it within half a year, it's good to know that someone believes in me. Oh, btw, poor thing had an operation above his two front teeth and he looked a bit like a turtle for 2 days. (Interesting that he's my third boyfriend who lost his two front teeth in an accident. I wonder what the percentage of such people is in society.) Anyway, he's better now and yesterday he was playing at the Cinetrip party at the Rudas bath again. He always DJs in the turkish bath part of the Rudas. Such a great night! I went with a friend of ours and his new girlfriend. She's absolutely cool and it was the first time I met her. We left immediately after Kaszi stopped playing because we were way too tired to stay. I even fell asleep in the sauna and woke up to a Spanish guy asking "Are you still alive?" :) There is one thing you should always do after a night of drinking and partying: drink a lot of water and eat something. So, at 3 a.m. we went to a Turkish fast restaurant and has Turkish pizzas. Ah, good old UC days... Ah, good new Budapest days :)